Seeing her not here is foreign to me. I miss her support, and I miss her poetry. She didn't even leave a scrap of it behind.

It's the worst knowing that she left while I wasn't even here to say goodbye, and she's still gone. I left too once, twice. And returned only really to use my print account.

The community I knew is gone. They're no longer active, and Jackie's been banned while I was away... I wonder what she did... I haven't been able to ask her what it was.

But back to frankie. There are things I want to share w/ her, reasons why I care. She was one of the few ... one of the only people I connected with her on DA, and I'll never forget that. It's a person to person thing.

I want to tell her how I'm going to Europe in the fall to study abroad, how I'll be in Poland and Germany and Hungary... and so many other countries during my entry tour. I want her advice. I want to chitter chatter like girls, something we'd probably never do... but I want it.

I want to share with frankie my hardships with my medication and hear her say it'll be okay, then listen to her on grey days and hug away her blues.

Frankie I miss you. I'd never ask you to come back, just say Hi.

--Your's

Jess